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Baru daftarkan nama semalam.. Maka puteri baru ini dinamakan Athea.. Welcome baby Athea..

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bertahan la yer..

alhamdulillah dari jumaat lepas sampai arini mood Al and Ad dua-dua baik nak bangun mandi pegi skool.. nampak happy blajo and all.. buat homework nyanyi-nyanyi so happy.. tapi pun i still have to be careful to ask about school.. angin tak menentu macam omak nya jugak la kan.. :)

i hope they can remain like this.. u go gals.. oh and ni pic pagi tadi.. still wearing the sportswear to skool.. bila ler nak dapat uniform sebenor.. lambat benor kilang nak nyiapkannya.. dah bayor mahal ni oiii..

kembar ke?

satu soalan wajib aku dengar everytime aku bawak Al and Ad kuar rumah.. even arini dalam 3 4 kali aku perlu jawab dengan jawapan standard 'takk.. beza setahunn'.. just kuar pegi Angsana, aku ngan diorang duorang je.. danda takde, pegi outstation.. first stop aku kat kedai buku, nak belikan diorang sampul buku untuk exercise book diorang also some stationeries.. situ dah ada orang tanya.. even mata orang2 dok tengokk je and to decide whether the girls are twin or not.. yeah we also get that a lot..

then the next stop is watson to buy something for myself, once i pay at the counter, the cashier trus tanya, 'kembar ke kak?' and aku jawab dengan jawapan standard.. dan sorang staf watson yang pastu lalu terus tanya jugak, 'kembar ek?' and again the same answer..

we moved on to McD, the girls want to eat burger, actually diorg nak main slide kat situ jek pun.. ada jek yang tanya 'kembar yaaa?' and followed by the standard answer.. after McD, kitorang pun gerak nak balik, aku gi bayar parking and on da way out, one girl kat stall krepek tanya the same question and politely i repeated the recycled answer..

huhu.. tu baru kuar tak sampai 2 jam, bayangkan la kalo kitorang ke mana-mana kat luor dalam tempoh yang lama, we've been trained to hear the same question and then repeated the same answer..

Al and Ad's height are only different by 2 cm kot.. huahaha.. and plus they always wore the same dress or shirt or jeans.. but if peoples look carefully they will find that there are not a resemblance in their face at all.. even Al has long straight hair and Ad has a long curly hair.. oh Al's hair pun selalu sangat mengundang pandangan mata orang.. ramai gak la tanya kat aku whether aku rebondingkan rambut dia.. gelak besor aku.. takde keje aku nak buat rambut budak2 kecik ni.. biorlah semulajadi..

so berbalik paada kekembaran diorang, aku pun selalu cakap ngan danda, kita ni pun kot yang mengundang soalan tu sebab diorg pakai baju sama, but then kadang-kadang bila kuar and pakai baju yang totally lain pun kena tuduh kembar jugak.. height issue la sebenarnya ek.. hopefully Al akan cepat lebih tinggi sket.. sian ngan orang-orang sekeliling yang dok ragukan sama ada diorang kembar atau tak and penat gak la sesape yang bawak Al ngan Ad jalan untuk jawab tentang perbezaan umor diorang..

i'm heart broken

my heart breaks.. when my girl refused to go to school.. And she's only 5, not even 5, she is 4 yrs and 2 months.. How cruel life is nowadays.. had to go to school at this young age..

Suddenly looking back at the way she acts today, i remember my past, that was me 24 yrs ago when i was forced to enter tadika.. i run back home whenever i reached tadika.. I cry all day long.. My mother had to stop sending me to tadika.. I last for almost 2 weeks.. But back then tadika isn't compulsory (err is it compulsory now??).. u can still enter standard 1 and compete with other kids because standard 1 punya silibus still the basic one.. A B C 1+1 and all the simple things.. but look at the standard 1 punya silibus skang ni.. gilos.. macam standard 3 zaman aku dulu..

Kids nowadays can read almost fluently at age 6.. yeah of course some are more advanced but still.. its hard to compete with each other.. stressful for the kids and i think the parents are more stressful.. everybody want the best from their child huh..

well why did my heart breaks? coz i just don't have the heart to force Al to skool.. seeing her crying, screaming, then the sad eyes.. i just wish i don't have to force her but every parents want the best right? selfish me..

why did my heart breaks? seeing that my daughter didn't want to listen to me makes my heart breaks.. suddenly i felt 'pang' to my face.. is this how my mother felt back then? i must had break her heart thousand of times.. and how do i face future.. Al and Ad is a small girl now, what if they grown up and have their back on me? how do i cope with this heart breaking feeling.. u will not understand much until u become a mother.. see how a mother can be so defensive.. protecting their child even if they knew the child is guilty..

i always read in newspaper about a mother who defend his drug addict son and i wonder, why must the mother protect his son, she should just report to the police, no? i don't understand much about mother's feeling.. but as i slowly grow up and be a mother, i started to understand.. a good mother will do anything everything for their child.. (please exclude the one who buang their babies freely, they are plainly stupid)..

so what do i do now, i had try my best to make Al see how great school is, and i send my doa 5 times a day hoping that Al will be braver and ask Him for Al to has a stronger heart to face school.. please Allah.. please receive my doa..

what a monday

Luahan Hati Seorang Ibu

after one week of happy school.. suddenly arini Al refused to go to school.. bangun pagi memula mandi cam biasa.. bila ibu nak siapkan Al, ngamok2 taknak school.. when ibu asked why, Al kata nanti kat school akak nangis nak ibu..

argh so much drama la this morning.. nangis golek2 kat lantai pastu ibu nak kuar peluk kaki ibu tak bagi ibu gi work.. ended up ibu sent Ad jek gi school.. luckily Ad tak ngamok skali or else bleh pitam ibu dibuatnya..

because of Al punya ngamok, ibu lambat gi work, padahal ibu dah timing baik punyai nak setel cepat at least bleh sampai work at 7.40am, pagi ni nak kena sampai cepat because of perutusan tahun baru by VC.. surely parking space susah nak dapat kalo lambat.. ibu reached the parking area 5 minutes before 8.00am, and duhhhh NO PARKING.. even banyak keta dah mula block memblock.. dengan tahap keta berupa bas tu, ibu tak mampu nak block keta orang, so terpaksa parking kat bawah bukit seberang jalan dekat tasek itu.. arghhh..

senak perut semput napas nak jalan naik opis.. sampai dewan, bawah sume dah full.. kena naik tingkat atas.. arghh lagiiii.. tinggiiii dah tu panas lak tu kat atas tu, lampu xde gelap suasana.. what a monday.. luckily tomorrow cuti.. terima kasih..

school time

yeay smalam Alisyia (Al) and Adrieyana (Ad) telah masuk ke sekolah tadika dengan jayanya.. sampai school masuk dalam dengan relaksnya, aku nak salam pun diorang tak pandang.. nampak skolah jek.. boleh gitu..

masa amek diorang balik, ada la budak2 nangis so masa kat umah aku tanya la tadi kat school ada budak nangis ke.. bukan main lagi Ad ngajuk budak tu sambil buat-buat muka cemey 'aaaaa nak mamaaaaaa nak balik umahhhhh' berdekah aku.. they are so happy.. syukur la sangat diorang tak ikut perangai aku yang tak suka gi skolah masa kecik2.. huahah..

this morning diorang dah siap quite early.. supposedly danda yang akan anto diorang pi school every morning while masa balik ada van antor balik umah.. sebabnya aku gi keje awal 730 dah kuar and danda nya time more flexible.. hmm but then this few weeks starting tomorrow diorg kena gi school awal la kot sebab aku yang kena anto memandangkan danda outstation..

so disebabkan tadi kol 730 diorang dah siap, Al dah bising nak gi school nak gi school.. MIl yang ada kat umah kata nanti dolu school bukak kol 8, ni awal sangat, Al ngamok2 sebab dah tak sabar nak gi school.. lawak je rasa.. orang ngamok-ngamok taknak gi school.. dia ngamok-ngamok sebok nak gi school.. tapi bila tengok macam tu lega rasa.. takler pening kepala sebab nak bangun pagi mandi sume senang sebab diorang sangat prepare untuk masuk school.. i'm so happy..

their birthday..

today is Adrieyana's 3rd birthday, last 30th Nov was Alisyia's 4th birthday.. dah besar anak2 itu.. time flying so fast.. they cheer me all the time.. bayangkan everyday balik keje tengah bukak pagar rumah, they stand in front of the grill and sing 'ibu.. ibu.. engkaulah ratu hatiku.. bila ku berduka.. engkau hiburkan selalu..' and i smile i laugh with joy in my heart.. i love u girls.. membesarlah jadik anak yang baik yang solehah..

aku dok bertapa kat spital ni seharian..

arini ari sdeh.. dari tgh malam alisyia muntah2 dan cirit birit.. bangun pagi2 kami decide nak bawak dia g spital.. sampai spital dalam kol 8 pagi dengan harapan nak dpt numbo cepat and cepat jumpa doc and cepatlah urusan tamat di spital..

kitorang giliran numbo dua.. ada akak tu lagi power dia dah smpai dari kol 7.40am.. sampai kat spital je pun alisyia dah kena tukar baju lagi sbb muntah dekat meja receptionist.. tunggu punya tunggu punya tunggu doc xsmpai2..

penat weh pakcik doc nape xsampai lagi ni.. aku bebel dalam ati jek.. err xgak.. aku bebel kat danda.. aku kata kalu cenggini punya lama tunggu doc baik aku g spital besor xyah g spital pakar.. g spital pakar dgn harapan dpt servis cepat..

doc sampai lebih kurang 3 jam kemudian.. bayangkan kol 11 doc baru smpai.. waaaaa sdeh giler aku rasa.. masuk2 blik doc dia kata kena admit ward.. waaaaa lagi la aku sdey giler.. masuk ward sebab doc nak masuk air dlm bdn.. waaaa aku nak nangis dah dengor sbb confirm kena cucuk tangan..

maka trun la kat bawah cucuk tangan segala.. alisyia meraung aku pun meleleh air mata.. well nak buat cemana.. dah ibunya gembeng.. sdeh aku..

la ni aku still kat sebelah katil alisyia.. dia tgh tdo.. aise budak katil sebelah ni jerit2 plak karang bangun alisyia dia pun dok melalak gak.. jenuh arini aku tahan airmata sebab sdey tgk alisyia berendam air mata kecewa tgk tangan dia berbalut and kena paksa akan ubat.. power giler nurse tu paksa anak aku makan ubat.. budak melalak macam nak rak pun dia xpeduli.. kebal btol..

and plus lagi sdey sbb adrieyana kat umah pun xbp sihat gak.. muntah2 gak nak cirits sket.. danda dah bawak dia g klinik dah bagi ubat.. macaman dia tdo malam ni.. kesian adik.. semoga sihat lah segera anak2 ibu yer.. amin..

my girls..

I don't have much to do so i would like to introduce my two little angels.. haha ada kena mengena ke.. xpe.. here they are..

This is my number one.. Alisyia is her name.. i just don't know how to get rid that puting off her mouth..

This is Adrieyana.. the second one.. with a curly hair and loud voice.. you will laugh when you hear her laugh..

Thats all folks..