Athea..

My 3rd girls, Athea..

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"Dreamy Athea"

3rd time raya in preggy mode

On the first day of raya..
Ni waktu petang.. Masa pagi pakai baju lain.. Still in purple color..
Pagi beraya in my family house then petang balik kota dah bukak baju raya dah longgok dalam laundry basket.. Tiba-tiba PIL suh siap-siap nak 'beraya' (bermaafan) so grab this baju yang my sis bagi masa dia beraya pregnant lalu dulu..
I surely looks like preggy mom in this baju.. Selalunya tak nampak sepreggy ini..

Long hiatus on blog.. People might think I died from my operation.. Hehe..

Alhamdulillah everything went smoothly.. After 6 weeks of MC and I'm back to work.. So much works to be done.. Now ni baru ada ruang break sket..

Dah masuk bulan puasa pun.. Syukur dapat jumpa ramadhan lagi.. Dah masuk 13 hari puasa ni alhamdulillah leh puasa penuh haha.. Takut gak kantol puasa sbb minggu2 sebelum puasa tu tersangatlah kuat makan.. Pagi-pagi dah lapo giler mesti nak makan.. Kol 11 makan.. Kol 2 makan.. Kol 4 nak makan.. Lapo sampai nak pengsan.. Tapi nikmat Allah bagi ni bila puasa je maka tahap lapo sampai nak pengsan tu dah takde..

Setakat ni bulan puasa tak banyak masak for family.. Walaupun latih Alisyia puasa, bangun sahur everyday and buka bersama, Alisyia masih lagi yangyok.. Susah nak control memandangkan ibu kat opis dan Alisyia tak dapat lagi blajo kawal iman hehehe.. Tokcik pulak pantang Alisyia sebut nak air, terus sua ke mulut airnya, xde langsung kata motivasi nak bagi Alisyia blajo bpuasa.. So far weekend je berjaya control Alisyia..

Adrieyana xde maknanya.. 'Ibu, nana puasa tapi nana makan bu' T_T aihlahhh anak ibu sorang ni..

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Sick and sad

Dah 4 ari aku terlantar kat hospital ni, nampaknya at last the gallstones dah tunjuk belang.. It stucks now at my bile duct and tak nak get out.. I didn't eat for 3 days already.. Air masuk kat badan dalam 9 botol sudah.. Once in a while aku akan kena attack kesakitan smpai short in breath then terpaksa minta injection tahan sakit..

And what's make things worse is I am pregnant.. Bukanlah pregnant perkara yang malang tetapi sekarang keadaan jadi complicated.. Esok I'm gonna have a surgery to remove my gallbladder.. Chances that the baby will survive is too little.. I just don't have any tears too cry anymore.. I am in a bad shape and getting worst.. The operation will take around 3 hours so the doctor say.. I hope me myself will survive..

Ya Allah ampunilah hambaMu yang hina ini..
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Swim swim..

Athea went for swimming!!

Last Tuesday we went to Lotus Desaru.. Mandi manda dekat Theme Park sangatt kat situ.. Athea enjoy sangat mandi berendam relax jek.. Athea is already 8++ months.. she doesn't have any teeth yet.. no sign at all and Bella anak Dr Harlina with Sheikh Muzaffar sudah ada gigi at age 5++ months.. huwaaa.. beza Athea and Bella just around 2 weeks kot.. now Bella dah ada 3 gigi kot.. hehehe..

Well Lotus Desaru ni quite big.. actually ada a lot of activities ada dekat situ.. water theme park dia ni kecik je.. quite pricey kot.. dah tu ala-ala nak kena amek pakej.. paksaan.. i'm not sure the real deal but then danda  said that we need to pay for package that includes the water theme park and also paintball.. of courseeee we don't play the paintball.. rugi sajek.. mana nak main.. lepas main air very exhausting and hungryyyyy so need to head out from Lotus hunting for food.. everybody were so excited nak pegi ke Lotus masa paginya sampaikan buat bekal pastu tertinggal kat umah.. T_T marilah nangis berjemaah..

We stop at Sg. Mas kot ada gerai tepi jalan jual Mee Rebus, Soto, Laksa Johor, Cendol dll. Ramai gak orang brenti situ, sedap gak makanan dia.. but as usual i can't enjoy food.. nowadays konsep makan untuk aku adalah masuk mulut dan telan.. kunyah buat syarat supaya tak ler terbegik makan.. mana tak nya.. Athea dah bising.. dia pun nak makan.. so lepas aku telan sume makanan maka dok lah aku bertapa dalam keta while others still enjoyed their foods and cendolss.. gitulah yer kalo ada baby baby kecik ni.. sabo je la..

Alisyia getting better

Alisyia's handwriting is getting better and better.. entah apa la dia tulis takpelah mak tak kesah nak oiii.. tapi nampak lah dah teratur.. at age 5 years and 3 months old.. i don't think i even know ABC back then.. all i care at that age is playing masak-masak.. lari-lari.. perantin-perantin.. and all sort of kampung games my mom allowed me to play.. but of course i can't compare my lifestyles and Alisyia's world.. nowadays ni i think scary la.. kecik kecik sudah sibuk gi skolah la playskool la art school la music school la.. stres woh.. luckily i'm old oledi i can do whatever i want.. eh.. can ar?

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eh terbaca balik apa dia tulis situ.. saya suka main galah? ceh apa daaa.. i think in one of her text book ada about one boy ni ada galah.. if i'm not mistaken la.. so she must opt that word from her text book.. aaa ha'a la.. see the sequence.. i think it's supposed to say saya ada galah.. guna jolok buah ka something like that.. takpe la practise yer lagi..

2012

Ahh.. Tu dia suasana kat luar penuh dgn bunyi-bunyian mercun letup sana sini.. I think it almost 10minutes now letupan blaku.. Peoples are so happy celebrating a new coming year.. Let's just hope that we will strive for the best and live another year in barkah..

My 2011 ended up with a sad tear from my first girl, Alisyia.. Admit ward petang tadi sebab gegata yang teruk dah almost seminggu tak baik.. Dahler muka badan tangan kaki bengkak giler.. Demam panas lagi.. Gatal tergaru2 sampai tak boleh tido.. Luruh hati seorang ibu..

2011 was supposed to be a good year when after almost 6 years working my ass off here in UTM as a contract worker, alhamdulillah FINALLY dapat juga permanent.. But oh my.. 6 bloody years.. Like my former boss said, 'mahalnya rezeki awak' cause she's trying hard to help me to get the 'real' job..

Then after a week receiving an offer letter, I got a call from 'hell' haha asking why am I taking so much time to report to the new office.. Duhhhh.. I think its on 19 Oct and I told the new office that I will report my duty on 1st Nov, I'm going to take a week off day to finish my contract leaves, well only 5 days eventhough my leaves were about 14 days more.. I don't mind if the call that been made was made politely but nooooo the freaking caller raised a voice and attacking me.. Such a drama queen..

Then my week off day wasn't a relax days at all when Athea at 5 and a half month had a bad fever.. Demam panas selama seminggu tu sampai 40'c suhu badan dia.. Alhamdulillah I was on a leave.. Bawak pegi spital, doc masukkan air kat idung dia sebab kahak teball, then bagi oksigen pastu buat fisioterapi tepuk2 satu badan pastu masukkan tiub nak sedut kahak kat dalam.. Air mata ibu tak brenti mengalir..

After a week report duty kat opis baru, I started having a repeated nightmare that I had been through back in 2008.. My gallstones attacking me again, 2 or 3 nights mesti akan kena sekali untill after 3 weeks and keje sebulan at the new office, I had a worst attack and dikejarkan ke spital masuk emergency terus warded.. Seems like my gallbladder dah kena infection.. Warded for 3 days 2 nights and mc for 11 days.. I was in a worst state sampai satu tahap tinggalkan wasiat kat my danda just because I think I couldn't take it anymore.. But again Allah giving me a chance and I am still living my life happily.. Thank u Allah..

and now here I am pulak sitting here beside Alisyia ending 2011 and. welcoming 2012 in the spital.. I'm hoping that there's nothing serious and alisyia will recover soon enough.. Ikutkan doc cakap pun its not so bahaya.. Just need a bit of antibiotic..

Dear 2012, please be kind to us hehe.. Moga Allah akan memberkati hidup kami sekeluarga dan moga kami jadi insan yang lebih baik.. Amin..

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